Sunday, March 27, 2011

Sunday Afternoon

 everyone's looking for the answer
of what it is to feel alive
to be a part of something
 man i can't decide
was it gross to hide behind
a card board sign
while smoking crack
or gross to look the other way
while hiding inside a fast
moving car?
snow fell today on spring
the daffodils are semi white

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Review/ The Angel Therapy Handbook by Doreen Virtue

     "We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
                                                                                ~Luciano de Crescenzo~

     The cabin with running water and a flush toilet was the greatest relief after having spent two days camping in a soggy wet tent with four small children. We were exhausted, my husband and I so everyone went right to bed after dinner and baths. The next thing I knew, he was shaking me out of a deep sleep and had carried the kids outside. "What was going on?" I asked. "A woman woke me up," he said. She kept saying over and over, "wake up now! Get the kids." That's when we realized one of them had turned one of the gas oven's knobs on high and blew out the pilot lights. We were slowly getting carbon monoxide poisoning. Who was the woman? An angel? It took until the next day for us to feel ourselves again and I wouldn't be writing this now if it wasn't for the voice that I believe saved my family's life.             

    Over the years, the angelic helpers have intervened many times. People started noticing and asking questions about how I could help them connect to angels. I have never found a book on the subject until now. "The Angel Therapy Handbook" by Doreen Virtue has been a saving grace! I received the book in the mail from Hay House publications for review and started reading immediately. Since I already believed in angels and have a general understanding of them, I skipped the first parts and jumped right into the end first! It tells how to market yourself as a spiritual speaker. There are tips on writing for magazines, using a microphone, engaging your audience including the hecklers! Addiction cord cutting and lifting the energy of psychic attack is a topic she refers to as well.

     The book sat on the kitchen table and soon, other people were thumbing through it. My daughter was surprised to read that she was actually quite normal, just a little "energy sensitive". Did you know the angels have different colors of halos and their names bring a certain quality of healing energy for you? For instance, Archangel Gabriel delivers clear and important messages, helping teachers, writers, actors and artists. He also assists with all aspects of parenting, including adoption, conception and birth. His halo color is copper. I'm starting to get all kinds of ideas now for how I'll use that new metallic copper paint I bought to bring in the helpful energy to my art room. Will keep you posted! Happy reading.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Beautiful Women

                                                         hand painted silk scarf 2010

     Who is the most beautiful woman you have ever known? Did you judge her beauty by a physical attribute or the way she made you feel? Aunt Carmelita was the most beautiful woman I knew as a child. Her thick waist length hair shimmered in the sun and complimented her naturally white teeth. I was her side kick the summer of my ninth year. We rode up and down mountains in Mexico visiting her girlfriends, swimming at the country club and thumbing through magazines of beautiful dark skinned women while she had her nails and hair painted at the salon. There were nights that I woke to the sound of guitars playing and men singing outside. The moon always left a sliver of light  inside my bedroom to help me see below the balcony and yet tiny enough for me to remain invisible. These memories put a lump in my throat, the smell of jasmine still intoxicates my senses, and that is how I fell in love with everything romantic.

     It can be hard to see yourself beautiful if you are the complete opposite of what you think is beautiful. My hair was blond, I had green eyes, and I was painfully quiet, so different than my outspoken aunt who put perfume on her lips and made people laugh with her jokes. What is beauty? Anne Boleyn, who was Henry VIII's mistress and wife was said to be the only woman who captured Henry's attention as his mistress, yet was beheaded later by his orders. She was dark haired and flat chested, some spoke about her having an extra finger and a protruding tooth because she herself was the opposite of the current day which saw beauty as blond with fair skin and a "rounded butt". Women died from bleaching their skin which had lead, they painted veins on their faces and used lye and herbs to whiten the teeth, causing the gums to recede. Red heads were considered marked by evil because it was thought their mothers conceived while menstruating.

     The rules, the rules! Let's change them. As I age, my idea of beauty has shifted. It's the arthritic thumb of my mother who oil paints and cooks fabulous meals at the age of seventy four. The snow white hair of Barbara with the bluest eyes I have ever seen that matches her turquoise dress and years of wisdom. Throw in Elizabeth with her rounded figure and contagious dry wit that would make any man melt. So many women who show us freckles on a nose, fat lips, skinny lips, strong hands that lead, quiet voices that empower and many different skin tones and textures, this story is for you. The secret of real beauty, is having the courage to take off your mask and let the world see your true and authentic you! The one and only, one of a kind. Be real!

         Susana (my mom), Martha, Rebeca, Lydia, Irene, Sandy, Carmelita, Gaby...Te quiero!



Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Me, Myself and I

 Me, myself and I is a glorious feeling. It doesn't happen over night but when it does, you should thank they, them and others. Life is trial and error, fall, get up and do overs. Eventually, we get it right. It's the perfect throw when you just know the basketball is going in with a "shwish" sound. A dose of healthy self love will erase jealousy and stagnation.

  "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to be over, it's about learning to dance in the rain."
                                                                                                                    ~author unknown~